| RANDOM THOUGHTS DISNEYLAND FOR MY BIRTHDAY CANT WAIT __=my person gosh i just dont knoe anymore..i love ____ but i feel as if ___ doesnt love me...__acts like __doesnt care anymore.. i feel so lost...what more can i do? what else can i say?.i remember when i didnt need anyone, when i was free to do what i want when i wanted...i still can but to the point where questions start flying ,arguments arise, words are spoken, and egos are hurt. To the time when i was carefree, when all i needed was my friends...tho everytime something arises we get through it. im happy for that. it's just that we are truly 2 different people yet we balance eachother out. __ gives me things i lack and i give __what __lacks...im a wild party, freespirited person, yet im somewhat tamed because of ___, i teach__ to be wild to live life, i make __ see both sides of a situation instead of jumping to conclusions, hmm after thinking we complete eachother. we truly do..though we dont get along sometimes we always overcome it. whatever happend to me.. i lost myself, well at least i think i have. entering into this already 1 year relationship has made me change..im not the same person as i once was...yes im still free spirited, i still love to party, im still wild. yet i always hold a little back..before i would go all in it..dont get me wrong i live life to the fullest it's just that i feel as if i am a different person..back to the days where i would cut school and go to popeyes, superstar, friend's houses, the wharf , downtown...many memories of what i used to be..IM THE SAME PERSON...but changed more refined..same basic structure.Same style of thinking.Same way of doing things, its just feels as if someone upgraded me and made me better than what i was before..yet i dont knoe what really has changed or is different of me.. enough of this stuff ahah..i really noticed that the people around me have changed also..the close friends i thought were going to be with me forever are not there anymore..some are and im greatful but the others have somehow lost there connection..it hurts me to see all our memories gone.. ok enough ahah im just babling(sp) so disneyland for my birthday well my birthday is on October 16 but on the 12-15 im goin to Disneyland with that special someone...im so excited..if u guys know me im a very BIG i mean BIGG ass kid at heart so u all know how magical this is going to be for me...i havent had time for myself latly and this is goin to be great for me..just to get away and go to a place i love to go...ahha i might sound stupid but when i enter some place magical..for example the DISNEY store downtown or the FAIRY store at the wharf i just get this feeling inside where it makes me smile and make me feel as if im 5 again...i love it..ahah its liek a drug lol...but ya im so hyped i cant sleep ahah ok well its long enough bye |
